I'm almost finished Brain over Binge and just wow. It's completely changed my perspective on binge eating and the amount of control you have. Furthermore it offers a great solution and because I'm focusing on my urges to binge as opposed to everything else (something the book talks about frequently) it's a lot easier to just...not. To not have that large bag of crisps that I won't even taste, to not buy that Chinese that could serve two people. Which brings me to a worry I have which I believe is connected. Brain Restore to Survival Instinct.
Brain Restore to Survival Instinct
If you are able to restore your brain to factory settings (back to how it should, back to the beginning before everything became messed up) is there still a physical response? I'm not sure exactly how the human body works but my worry is that by learning how to not restrict I will begin to gain weight. Restricting my food was my only form of maintenance because after constantly overeating I would begin to try to regain control and then that would eventually lead to a binge. I would manage to lose pounds but would eventually regain them. The fear of gaining even more weight isn't irrational in my case because my BMI is already terrible. What if eating normally leads to even further weight gain?
This all means I have to learn how the body works in this sense. Will the survival instinct taper off and leave me able to enjoy indulgent food sometimes but to also eat healthier? I keep thinking, and I know it's an excuse, what if I'm meant to be overweight? I've battled with my body since I was a kid and I'm done fighting it. I want us to work together. I understand cravings and urges to binge are products of the mind but what of the actual physical effect of binge eating and restriction. Is my body now holding onto every calorie? Is this fear or reality?
I feel fitter, healthier, more in control and I actually feel slimmer believe it or not. I just don't think that is reflected in the mirror. I have no idea about the scales and the tape measure doesn't give much hope. So will I need time for my body to realise it isn't going to starve? Also now I eat more meals so I don't binge. Snacks like NKD bars, dried fruit and smoothies. What will my body make of that?
If it is all brain then everything should be fine. The only thing I know for sure is I cannot give up. I have to keep eating healthily and exercising. For years I've been unable to follow any particular meal plan, whether eating clean, paleo or sugar free. Now I finally am more in control maybe that could be my next step, to find a plan that works.
But my question at the end of all this still is, how can I lose weight healthily?
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